Being Loved Blog written 3/16/10

I am diligently working on changing my habits to be a better person in Christ who strengthens me. I love Jehovah God and how He has just shown me his love. I love how Christ has surrounded me with love (not just from my children, family, or friends) and shown me that I am part of the congregation that is his bride. I am respected and loved for who I am. It is a good feeling to know this. It is the kind of love I was missing when I grew up without a father in the home. Some women and men have fathers in their home growing up and still miss out on this kind of love.

I no longer feel anxiety when I have not heard from my friend like I used to feel. I am confident in Christ that I am loved. Whether he is there to be with me or not, I am happy because I trust in God’s purpose for me. I know that he has something stored up just for me. I believe my friend was sent to me for a reason. I don’t know if he was for a season, or my lifetime. I am hoping he is for a lifetime. But if he was just to show me what I can have in a mate I can only imagine what that person is going to be like.

However, I must not allow anyone or thing to come in place of me worshipping God. I believe I had resorted to doing just that. I was slipping away from giving God all of my attention and giving it to my friend. I would think about him all the time when I should have been thinking about my heavenly Father. I would get angry when I hadn’t heard from him and then resort to thinking negatively. So in revelation, I was giving my worship to a relationship that hadn’t really developed yet. I am thankful to God for showing me the error of my ways. I just hope it hasn’t cost me some time out of the relationship I was supposed to have.

In closing I wonder how many of you are completely in love with yourself AND God. I don’t mean a narcissistic type love for you either or acknowledging that God IS. I mean a genuine understanding of you and your shortcomings as well as the talents and gifts that you are blessed with. And with that do you honor the creator who made you and give honor to him when you are performing with your gifts and talents?  Or do you say look at what "I" did or have done?