Poem: My Friend written Jan 10, 2010

we met, connected and became friends or so I thought

you expressed an interest and I was in awe

could it be true? I gave chase and saw

we became friends and love was born or so I thought

love grew and a seed was created

born from our dying love that we decided should not be abated

But there were signs along the way

that told me to RUN! RUN VERY FAR AWAY!

I didn't listen didn't heed, didn't yield

the abuse began, my friendship was killed

you said you were sorry.

i forgave you again and again in a hurry.

i tried to forget but the wounds weren't allowed to heal

Over the years I started to act like you. What's the deal?

because I lost sight of me

it was easy for you to control me

i tried to get her back and you laughed and made fun

He said, "She's trying to find "herself" can you believe that hun?"

I heard him say to her. But I said no! I know who I am! Strong and sound!

She was lost but now I'm found!

I need to rebuild her, make her stronger!

I need to be my own friend in order to be in this relationship any longer.

Again with the laughter. Again with the mocking

More tears I cried, together but alone, sitting and rocking

I said our friendship was lost many years ago lover

Let's be friends again. Let's start over.

"Ha! We've been married all this time and you want to be just friends"

No dear that is the foundation that we need if you want to me to stay til the end.

Refusal, denial, and joking all ensued.

You don't want to be my friend so we are through

I see you already have given your friendship to another.

I see I am funding your lifestyle. Leave me! Why bother?

Well let's see how well you can swim without THIS lifepreserver. PEACE!!! I'M OUT!



Picking up the pieces to continue on my journey of being my best friend.

I introduced myself. Hello me! Hello self! Hello I! Do you all want to be my friend?

They answered with a resounding YES!!! GIRL, WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG?!?!?!