Synchronicity Part II? written 2/26/10

Okay so I was about to renew my lease in January. How about the day I am in the office signing or rather preparing to sign the lease My youngest has an accident and wets himself forcing me to leave without completing the renewal. Overnight the rental car I was using gets towed. (I had a rental because I turned in my car for repair from the accident I had in December which also developed the morning I was going in to renew my lease.) That was the last straw for me. I determined at that point that I was moving. That day I started looking at apartments to move to and found several I was interested in. However, 2 weeks passed before I actually went to view any apartments, partly because of weather and partly because of procrastination. I was worried that I would have to pay a large deposit since my credit was sub par due to the separation. So the weekend of the 2nd week I decided Monday morning at lunch I am going to go ahead and visit an apartment. I get there and love the place but I would have had to sign an application that day for move-in by the 1st week of March, which I was not going to do. (I mean why break my lease a few weeks early and get penalized?) 

So the lady starts telling me about other properties they have which one I had already requested information for. So she calls up the other place for me to see if they have anything available and they do. They had the 1st floor like I wanted and to top things off I will be paying $150 less than where I currently am!  Plus, the apartment was going to be available the weekend I needed to move out. I was SOOOOO excited. I could not believe my ears. Not to mention I fell in love with the apartment layout I once we got inside. So that was my 1st major synchronistic event of the year.
Then in February I had my bankruptcy hearing and was informed that my car could be included in the bankruptcy. So now I wouldn’t have to pay so much out of pocket. And once they petitioned to allow me to do that the payment I had already made would still go toward the balance owed for lawyer’s fees instead of to the car dealer. So I would finish paying early. I calculated that I can double up my payments and be done with the bankruptcy around the same time my lease is up at the new apartment. Just a coincidence, no I don’t think so.

Finally my friend tells me yesterday that he is being transferred to Oklahoma for two years. I was devastated. But he informed me that he would be coming back and forth. So I told him once he gets his house I will have to take a vacation out there to visit. Hopefully by then my ex will have resumed picking up the boys every other weekend. 

But something was nagging at me to ask him if he ever wanted to get married and he said yes one day but at the end of his message he stated that he’s sure I’m done with that. I was like whoa!!  Is he saying he would want to marry me?  So I assured him that I loved being married but that I was just with the wrong person. Then I asked if he was saying that I could potentially be someone he’d marry and he replied back “I think so”. Oh my goodness!!! Here I am holding back feelings I have for this man because I haven’t told him how I feel and tp see that he feels the same way.  Wow!  All I could say to myself was “Awww!” My heart just melted away at the response. I couldn’t think of anything to say that was sufficient for what he just wrote me so all I wrote back was "I’m flattered and appreciative. I would be honored."  What kind of crap is that? I am so freaking corny sometimes it is ridiculous.

I had already planned to tell him the next time I talked with him how I felt for him which I should have done when he came down here last Friday. But all week I didn’t get a call nor did I get through when I called. So we only were able to text this week. And I was not about to text him that. I would rather say it in person. He’s supposed to come down here tomorrow. So hopefully we'll be able to talk about the serious stuff.

But the final synchronistic thing is that I looked into the location of Fort Sill in case we do get married someday and I decide to move there. It’s a dual city with Lawton, Oklahoma like Raleigh-Durham. I said to myself, “No way!!!!” This is synchronistic to me because in 2007 when my ex and I moved his mother out there we looked at the area and decided it was a nice place to live or at least own a home out there to vacation. The houses and land out there are dirt cheap. Of course I would be ready to move back home as soon as his stint was over at Fort Sill but I think he would be ready as well because of his boys and family back here in NC. But I couldn’t believe it! What were the chances of the one place I have been in Oklahoma is the place where he will be stationed?

Everything happens for a reason. I can’t see it at the time it happens but I do believe there is a reason for it. The car accident I had in December has been of benenfit to me although at the time I was devastated about it. My car being towed prompted me to look for a different place to live. Right now I am going through pain and suffering from oral surgery which was needed due to a fluke with faulty equipment. I can’t see the benefit of this now but I know God needed me to go through this for a reason. I am praising him any way because I didn’t have to pay for any of the procedures.